Once we left New York City and moved to Dutchess County, everything changed. I was in a new school and trying to figure out how to make new friends. I found myself feeling isolated and left out. It was a hard transition after leaving all my friends in New York. I grew up in Woodstock, New York, so being in the country wasn't so difficult. It was everything else that was hard.
My mother's boyfriend, Larry, was a pill-popping alcoholic. We moved into a house that was on a large horse farm and I had the horses and fields to escape to. I made this image while walking around the property with Larry. He soon became a full-blown alcoholic who would black out and not remember his bad behavior. My mother felt unsafe and we finally managed to move out.